Note: Oops. Looks like I typed too much again... Hehe... Too much feelings here... Haiz...

Op is over. So PW is officially the end. No more PW... But there's still PW group outing I hope. Minus the PW that is. Hehe... Our grp practically had fun most of the time during the meetings. Except when we start doing work. Even rehearsing for OP was fun. Up and Out. :P Our grp would have know what that is. Hehe... 啊普and 凹土. Lol... That was funny. And I think during the OP if I didn't hear wrongly it was out and out again. Hehe... Well at least it's over. Haha... Finally over that is. The Q&A qns were mostly about free hugs. And mine was gracious society. O.o So weird. Good thing I had a feeling they will ask about gracious society and I printed some notes on gracious society by MM Lee. Better than nothing eh? Hehe... PW over! Weee... When's the next outing? :P

After that on Wed had to do GPF filing for PW. Nothing much. Just laughing at Modernisation of the Famous Tube. Again. Haha... We said he have a cert of participation for crap and the rest of us have distinction already. Lol... Work hard! MoFT. :P

Thurs was the day some of us were dreading I guess. The BBQ was pretty much the perfect timing. A time to gather to celebrate the end of the school year and PW and Chi. A time to forget all and just eat and talk and laugh. Somehow it turned up to be the best class outing so far. A high turnout. 24+ Ms Shan. Haha... Almost full attendance. Thanks Sherry for letting us use the venue. Her house was practically destroyed by us. Haha... Too many people in there. Too much noise and too much fun. Then when we were leaving Sherry threw Wen Xian's ball at dunno who. Then miss and dropped all the way down from a gap between the windows or something. All the way from the 16th floor to 1st floor. Scary. Lol.

Today (which is yesterday. Friday that is.) had to go to school to hand in a stack of things. Need to hand in the results slip signed and travel decleration form. Then somemore need hand in something to Mr Kum. That one was cause not sure how to fill in. Then end up take to Sherry's house then Mr Kum reply. So could only hand in on friday. Then still need hand in to another teacher the dunno what interview qns form or something. The teacher say need hand in by thurs. I totally forgot until like dunno what time and was at Sherry's house. The qns so tough. Then still need do the video for staff retreat. >.< Should be able to hide one side since I'm busy the whole Nov. Then no time to record. Haha... :P I don't want more teachers to look at me and smile and call me again. It's scary you know? You dunno the teacher but the teacher knows you. That's scary enough for students knowing me but I dunno them. I don't want to scare myself to death because I went to school. Lol...

Oh and thurs there was a crazy rush to go everywhere and do everything. That probably cause me to forget everything. Haha... Suddenly there got briefing. Then drag drag drag and late for the next briefing. Then run run run end up haven't start yet. Lol... Then after the BBQ and wake up got sore throat liao. Lol. Good thing OP is over. Whew...

Yesterday end up fill in form from morning till almost afternoon. Lol... The qns for the interview so difficult. Then need think a long time. Then chat with those that were there trying to appeal to retain 4H2. The meeting with the principal doesn't seem good. The school like forcing them to drop like that. Then is like they would never allow one. They just meet to beat around the bush and try to convince them dropping 1 subject is good. Like they already decided that they have to drop. So very sad lor. But Sherry almost made it to auto retaining 4H2. So I think she might succeed. Hopefully. Else our class is getting smaller and smaller...

Somehow if I were to do badly and be forced to drop then I really won't know what to do... I took 4H2 in the first place because there is more chance to promote. Even if I fail like 1 sub I can just drop it and continue. Like that like more chances to promoting. I always thought Econs would be the lousier subject. Somehow it turned out to be Chem... It's like before exams I already know, I have to do well and auto retain 4H2 or that's it. Chem gonna go to H1 and I'm dead. More memory work. So like end up somehow from a good idea become a very bad idea. Good thing no need to decide on this. Tian Fong's mother were talking to us yesterday. She say something that was like... very true. Then like we dunno what to reply. She say that our (me and ying qi where siting there next to them) results were good and don't need to be troubled about these. Studied hard and get good results then no need think about these...

I was lost for words then. True. Study hard and won't have to fret about all these. But it's like so scary. Just only a bit. That dropping could change the whole life. And it's that close. Just a slip in the results in promos and that's the end. It's really that scary. That close. I was practically that close. My chem was like no hope one. Physics kept pushing still stuck. Somemore there's 1 quiz I totally flunk it. Not even a S grade. So I very scared that would totally pull down my grade. Then econs is humanities. Like my humanities were never strong. The O level was like really very lucky. So that one I also didn't have hope. Since I didn't do well in quiz and mid year anyway... Then maths was like B in mid year. Last quiz before promo was a D. Super scary. My grades are those that really is cannot make it that kind. Good thing promos wasn't that bad. Good thing. Have to really count my blessings.

That close. That dangerous. That lucky. 1 thing gone wrong and I'm down for the chopping block. Have to study really hard soon. Haiz... In the SSP also that dangerous. There's like knifes everywhere. All their rank pts so high. Then mine wasn't really low but count in with the rest is pretty low. Pros. Haiz... I practically get selected for things now and then is because of the activities I took part in. I'm those kind that results still okok there but CCA still quite colourful. I guess I'm stuck with the CCA testimonial route. Have to put that in mind when I do everything in school. Results must still be there though. Just have to balance the time better. Study and try to get activities. Maybe I should go initiate some activities. But there's always the time constraint... Haiz... Why can't there be more time. Then I won't be typing this at such a weird time... Going to be 2am again... Yesterday slept at 3+am and woke at 7+am. Sleep like 3+ hrs only. I think I better go catch up on sleep. I'll post more when I feel like it. Now don't really have the mood to do that. When I start I don't stop. All these feelings just pour out of me. There's no place else to go to except here anyway... Haha...

Oh and I noticed my hand's shaking like crazy again. I wonder why... Like even now typing also a bit weird weird. The shaking is like more violent than usual. Practically like the hand moving up and down but it's automated. Haiz... Maybe not enough sleep will like that. Haha... Hopefully it gets better soon... Bye...

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