So college day finally over. Lol... Rehearse like dunno how many times just to go on stage get 1 award shakehand walk bow and get off the stage. Lol. At least got a plague. Put on display for fun. Lol. Somehow I feel like the award not good leh. I think the school also think like that. Subject awards get $40 voucher. Then we don't have. Lol... So sad...

Anyway after that we like got chased out. >.> And we were supposed to be invited to the reception. >.> Oh well... We went out and came back in through the front gate. Lol. We were supposed to be inside anyway. Somehow there was this big mess up and we were chased out. There was tons of mess up in the hall anyway. Lol. 1 whole middle batch of awards were given wrongly. So sad. Lol... Then the food like quite familiar. Lol. Was the same provider like Temasek Seminar one. We think anyway. So the food this time quite good lor. Haha... Looks like the school decided not to go for budget food this time round. :P

So sad the last 2 saturdays burned off. So not much time to do anything. Like most of the time do hw. Lol. Sad... Then friday got GP exam somemore. Haiz... Die liao lah... >.<

Then on friday supposed to have rehearsal for the college day again. But end up the principal happy so cancel. The full dress rehearsal also end up no full dressed. Or whatever you call it. Lol. So when for the Einstein's Cradle dry run. Lol. End up drag until quite late anyway. But quite fun. Managed to play with lemon copper and zinc. :P You should know what that is right? Hehe... I took a picture of it but I'll upload it after the event is over. In fact I forgot when is the event... LOL... so sad... I like the new T shirt design. Too bad it's black again. Will be super hot in it. Lol...

Ended my post @ 1:15 AM

On sat there was this workshop. More of like for preparing for interviews of all sort lah. Then funny things happen. Kinda. Lol...

There was this RISAC thingy. If you want know go google. Quite useful. Anyway I dunno why choose R. Then wei hong choose C. SOLO. HAHA. :P Grace choose E also end up solo. Lol. So unlucky. Then I was thinking if I choose wrong or not. Cause I also quite like. Then see the career possibilities quite suited to me. Then thought maybe not. End up damn funny. I go see the I de possibilities. Is almost the same one. Except those job I don't really like is excluded. Then got more I interested de in there. Lol... Got software engineeers de. And the hobbies is like exactly what I want to do/doing. LOL.... Damn sad. I really chose the wrong one. Haha... But R still got a bit like me bah. Cause I and R got a large part is overlap one. Lol... So.... Haha... Next time if can must see more clearly first then choose. Lol...

Then got the lunch packs. After everything got left 8 packs. So we all sat down and ate 4. Mr Kum still there say if dare then go try. Dunno spoilt already or not. Seems like not anyway. Lol... Then quite nice bah. Except maybe the veg a bit oily. Then xi ming say got a lot of pesticides. Haha... Then after that Ms Seah say the facilitators (Albert <- New Zealander wor... And when he first spoke he got this strong accent. I first thought was Australian. Lol. Then another is Bee. Study in VJC de.) say the food very nice. So actually is buy from canteen at $3 per pack de. So quite cheap bah. Since got 1 veg 2 meat and 1 potato. Means 2 veg and 2 meat lor. Lol...

Then lunch was very long. 1 hr. So we sit outside LT 3 and eat and drink and talk. I doubt you will see food there lah. We all eat very clean de. Except yingqi. She eat until the food all around her food box. :P But she got clean up bah. I hope. Lol. So if you see food there.... ~You see nothing~ :P

But so sad the whole sat burned off. Haiz... No time to do hw. Haha... Must sleep more now... Zzzz... :P

Ended my post @ 1:08 AM

The moon was super bright today. Must be because of the clear skies. Practically no clouds today. Still can see stars one... Lol... Very rare... Can see the stars twinkling one somemore. Haha...

Then somemore can see the surface of the moon. But the moon too bright already lah. Cannot see the surface. So cool. Lol. That's the picture I took. Can only see a blob of light. Lol. The moon so bright lor. Somemore today the sky no clouds at all. Must be because of that then so bright. Lol...

Sometimes it's good to slow down your pace and take a look at the surrounds. You might just discover something amazing...

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Thunder is roaring outside again... Hmm... Must be gonna rain. Haha... I found this pic from the internet. Anyway I saw this picture on the newspaper I think. About lightning. Then quite nice. Too bad can't find it online. Lol.

Sometimes it good to just sit there and listen to the sounds around us. Who knows you might just hear something amazing. Like a coin drop on the floor and you can pick it up. Lol... :P Anyway, it's claming to do that. Listen to the nature. You can hear many amazing things. Hmm...

It's good to take a backseat in life and see things in a different view. From a different perspective. Sometimes you see things that are unknown to you previously. You might realise there's a better way to handle things. Sometimes that's when regrets start setting in... Pondering about things that might not be needed. Hmm. It's weird why people do that huh?

Then again, there will be many things that we won't have discovered. Maybe there will be things we won't wonder about. Maybe we will fall into that deep pit we used to be in, unable to get out... There's no rope there anymore. Unless in the past. Now what?

Why wonder about the past? In fact, shouldn't it be why do we still dwell about it? Even if we thought of it, shouldn't we pick it up, take a look, and put it back again? There are reminders everywhere. It just makes it even more painful, even more empty to us...

Drop the past. Live with the present. Hope for the future. (Nono... Not the SDC's slogan of Hear the past, see the present, touch the future. Lol. I just checked it and it's correct. Lol. That was just a random guess. :P Really!) >.> Anyyyywaayyyy... Cherish the present. Do with what we have now. Be happy with what we have. Shouldn't that be the correct way to live our lives? Or is that too ideal to be realistic?

The one beside us. The ones close to us. Precious to us. Are they really able to be forgotten that easily? Once they are gone, can we really fill up that gap in us? In our hearts? Maybe there is. Maybe there's a even better one...

To the little girl out there, is the present really unable to fill up the gap made by the past? Do you have to trip and fall into that gap and scrap at it's floors again and again? Do you stand to gain anything from it?

Then again... Is the present really a better alternative? Or is it just another one of the many substitutes? One of the many poorly made substitutes that is going to be left on the roadside as usual? Maybe that gap can only be plugged in with the correct stopper, and the present one you have aren't it...

That's for you to ponder...

And for me to ponder as well.

Am I really just digging up that hole? Maybe there isn't any gap at all in the first place... Then again, maybe there is. Maybe time has filled it up. Perhaps the filling is poor. But just don't provoke it and it'll hold. Hmm...

It's time to push away the thing that's been bugging me. It's time to concentrate on more important things in my life...

You too... No?

Ended my post @ 2:35 AM

It's raining outside now... Too bad's it night so there aren't gonna be any rainbow. Lol... Maybe lightning will make the rainbow. Nah. Lol.

Glad that Tueday's NAPFA went well. Haha... Only standing broad jump and pull-up didn't manage to make the silver mark. Pull up is just 1 more and I no-count like 2 times. Lol. So that can be saved. No worries. Standing broad jump I improved by 10cm or so. Too bad I need to double that improvement. Haiz... I'll find a way. Somehow. I have to find a way anyway.

Thanks Zhi for her watch. I manage to improve (a lot) on my 2.4km run. Haha. Last year it was like 13+mins. Close to 14mins if I'm not wrong. Now improve to 12:40. Just nice a silver. Haha. Just hope it isn't rounded down though. If it is then it will be added 1 more second. Then means no more silver grade for that either. >.< Doubt they will do that though. Haha.

Thinking about that, Mr Yaw's training was sure useful. Haha. See other classes like not very well done for some of the items. At least I'm sure it helped a bit. My first round for 2.4 was like 1:30 or somewhere around there. Lol. And it seems like a normal pace to me. Then I started slowing down to meet the 2 min per round. Maybe I shouldn't have done that. Lol. Cause the next 3 rounds added quite a lot of time. 40 secs. Last round manage 2 mins I think. So not bad. Haha... I was still targeting a time of around 13:30mins. Haha...

Then going on to wed... It's stupid. For goodness sake. The incoming president of IT club is already blaming the seniors for things. >.> I believe that he surely aren't gonna be a good leader. For goodness, blaming us for being around. Then make the others don't want do stuff. >.> He didn't even do anything and he's blaming us for what he hasn't done? >.> Stupid guy. Good thing is I handed over my position to someone trustworth enough. And I'm sure of it. There's currently a lack of proper control over his members but I believe that will work through. It's a minor problem anyway. He had more experience than me that's for sure. At least I'm glad that robotics is going the right way. The club as a whole? No comment.

Then again, seems like not only IT club is having this problem. SC is having that as well. >.> And they call it SC. I guess the school leader's quality is going down. Too bad. We don't have a choice. Good thing is end of this month and it has nothing to do with us. Just hope they don't come and disturb us. And now I really don't think prom night is a good idea. Looking at the way the incoming leaders are doing their jobs...

I guess there's only 1 word to say. Disappointment. Oh well. The long weekend now is left with a Sunday. Better turn in soon. I want to catch whatever sleep I can get. Haha...

And on the end note, maybe some things aren't as simple. Haha. Then again, if you don't at least crawl forward, you'll never know how it would turn out would you? Just that maybe the time is wrong. 2 years back I've not done anything for the same reason as now. 2 years later I'll have to wait until the time is ripe. Again. Maybe it will be too late. But now is definitely not the right time. The facts is right beside me. Literally. Juggling is tough. No doubts. I guess even the best of jugglers can't manage it at time. It's too risky to bet on it... Hmm...

Ended my post @ 1:43 AM